Fading

There were timesWhen I’d rejoiceMore than I do nowIt hurts a little moreEach time they witherChanges that happenTo the mind and heartA piece of me is goneAnd I become differentSometimes what I’m notOr what I shouldn’t beOutpours of sympathy‘Move on’ they all sayBut how to tell themThe turmoil withinPeople that we touchThose that talkedFew weContinue reading “Fading”

“I”

I can never forget the day I stood by the Hudson River. By that time I had scored a ‘C’ in a Finance class, my graduate assistantship and Resident Assistantship were in danger because of my GPA dropping below the mandatory 3.0 for graduate studies, which would lead to financial implications including losing housing andContinue reading ““I””

Adieu 2022

At every end of year for many years now, I’ve been posting my accomplishments, high points, how I beat odds and so many things I am generally proud of. On one side I experienced most success in my professional and media life but on the other side I lost so many dear ones that IContinue reading “Adieu 2022”

What A Killer Taught Me

We were living in a nice location closer to the University so my roomies wouldn’t have a problem commuting. I was working already and had just purchased my first car, so traveling to work was not a problem. Also, I always wanted to live closer to my host parents and most greedily didn’t know howContinue reading “What A Killer Taught Me”

In Between Life and Death

“Don’t be ridiculous. You grew up in India,” which is truly a loose translation that I should never complain about allergies. Most of my Desi paisans and few more have found utmost hilarity in my allergies, most recent being allergy induced laryngitis and Blepharitis. Well, it is funny when you are able to sneeze forContinue reading “In Between Life and Death”

Time

The time I spent with youIs what matters to meWhile you may not realizeYou’ll miss me when I’m goneThen it’s too late to reconnect‘Cause you’d want to spend someAnd memories flash inadequatelyBut I’ll be nowhere to be foundTears never will be enoughNor will the hooch bring me backWhy not just give me the minutesNow, whenContinue reading “Time”

Mystery

Definitely is a mysteryBecause we choose it to beSeems like a cruel playOf time and feelingsAnd may be of fate tooSo much of heartLost to dreams of nightThat never become trueBut who is complainingFor we’ve become slavesTo memories and lornThe pining seems intrinsicNo matter how painful it isAudaciously we continueAgain and again and againInto eternityContinue reading “Mystery”

A Light

Creeps in disguised as loveTakes over the mindDistrust settles in like moldAnd heart disconnectsTears can’t be stoppedSmiles slowly fade awayLife gets confused as hellWondering who could helpBattles become silent Celebrations are tiring Feelings are less genuinePain become more realNothing worth living forWanting to end it allFading away seems easy Than the burden to live onWonderingContinue reading “A Light”

A Daughter’s Regrets

I don’t have many regrets in life. But I do have few of which are most pricking. I wish my dad was alive to hear me say “sorry” to both him and my mom. Even though I was an obedient daughter, I was never there for them during their early retirement days. I was bornContinue reading “A Daughter’s Regrets”

Third Grader

A third grader was perched on top of a table so she cannot get down unless someone helped her. Somehow it seemed like a set up similar to an interrogation room. There were three adult men in their late twenties to mid thirties that took on this little child probably with intent to ‘catechize’. IfContinue reading “Third Grader”