2019 – Retrospect

#2019 isn’t over yet but it is by far the toughest of all I can remember. Because this year, I discovered and forgave myself, I know exactly who my heart beats for, I’ve realized more so than ever what my micro-triggers are, what /who matters to me most and how I’ve come to love my silence. I’ve been a fan of my own words forever but now I’m the biggest fan of my thoughts as well. I went from why me to why the heck not! I am my favorite cheerleader when I am able to bend down all the way while standing to tie my shoes laces or going up and down 8 floors like a no one’s business, not having to color my hair just yet or wear makeup, dressing up on my own terms, commanding the room full of wise people, knowing when to step away and being able to write on behalf of many that cannot for themselves made me feel better than I ever did. I worked on all the wounds and hurt that I gathered since I was a child and I wiped clean the slate. There is nothing pending that I will carry into the new year whether be aesthetic or mental. The garage is cleaned and so is my soul. All shit lists have disappeared and those that brought toxicity have been erased from all memories. I have finally caught up with life – there is no bucket list, only accomplishments, successes and redefining moments. As someone rightly said, “Yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery, today is a gift, which is why we call it the present!” #quotidianblessing

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