All along

It is a barrage of emotions

To look for ever lasting peace

Searching for that no one sees

Sometimes it is tough love

But mostly immense pain

There are times I’d be a coward

Coiling in deep regrets

Hurting in memories made

As there won’t be any more

Life seems at a standstill

And I want to seek refuge

Courage doesn’t come easy

Hope likes to evade

Nothing is what it used to be

When there are more questions

Than answers that linger aimlessly

The pining causes great fear

Of losing what I never had

Yet, my scour continues

To find the serene divinity

In places that are unreal 

Little did I realize my God

Is a human with a golden heart

Never did I have to look as hard

Because he was with me all along!